As a little girl growing up in Russia, the only thing I have ever wanted to be was a model. I did model professionally until I was about 24 when my husband and I decided it was time to have a baby. I needed a better lifestyle, had to gain some weight, to get healthier, to start taking care of myself and not just try to stay skinny.
In 1998 we had a baby, our first daughter. Following her birth, I had a very successful career in high-end designer retail management. We have moved many times from state to state, and across the country. Ended up in Boston and fell in love with Massachusetts.
I am 5’10”, I always took care of myself, exercised, ate well, at least according to what I believed at the time to be healthy eating. But never in my life has it crossed my mind to get back into modeling. I was approached by agencies even in my thirties, but I just laughed it off, I was a successful business manager, being recruited by some of the best designer retailers in the country, I loved my job! …. until I did not.
Konstantin and I decided to have another baby, at that time he already had a successful fitness and martial arts studio, and so I was able to stay home with the baby. This time around, as I was older and my priorities have changed, I wanted to be home for my kids, with my kids, for my husband.
When our youngest was one year old, in Spring of 2010 I was diagnosed with Lichen planus (LP body) and Lichen planopilaris (LPP scalp). The long process of diagnosis was stressful and downright torturous. Finally, I knew what I had, and the prospect of losing my hair was the most devastating part of it! My hair! I was not thinking of my deteriorating health, or why I was in this predicament, or how LP can spread to your body, your scalp, your mouth, your face, everywhere! All I could think of at that time was losing my beautiful hair.
I was depressed, devastated and along. Who can understand?! My whole life I have had the most gorgeous, healthy, thick head of hair. At that time if someone would tell me that I will model again, I would think this was the cruelest meanest joke, and would never again talk to that person.
Today, 5 years later I am a model.
What happened? LP/LPP/OLP made me a better person, physically and mentally. I am healthier than ever. I am in the best shape physically than I could possibly be at 41. I avoid anything that could be detrimental to my body and my spirit, that includes unhealthful food, negative media, negative people, etc. I know for a fact I will live a longer and a happier, healthier life because to LP/LPP.
I am happy, grateful and love my body for its healing ability, for getting better. I love my scars and the hair that I was fortunate to keep, I only have few little scars. I am grateful that LP/LPP/OLP is in remission because I got to be so healthy, I am no longer a good host for diseases. I have also accepted the fact that if a day comes and I do lose my hair, I am okay with it now! I will get a collection of fabulous wigs and I will rock them! 🙂
So this is the number one, testament of gratitude to a condition that made me ultimately better. I could have gone with conventional meds, pumping my body with drugs, drugs that would inevitably cause serious side effects, I would not be addressing the root cause of the illness. But thankfully I went with natural medicine, with getting my body healthier and allowing it to heal. And now as a model at this stage of my life, I know what I am modeling! I am modeling mindfulness, wellness, health, gratitude, and beauty within. I promote health, wellbeing, acceptance, and joy.
Here is to my LP/LPP/OLP! It was never about fighting it but accepting it, learning to live with it and managing it. I stopped fighting it and it stopped fighting back.
Here is to your health!